I have been a little quiet as I haven’t posted in awhile because there have been many positive changes that have occurred in my life. My life did a complete 360 degrees all the way around but I must say it is an opportunity to focus completely on my health problems and finding the ways to build my life back up. I must say that the natural pain relief has been working for the most part for those who privately inquired.
Unfortunately the natural pain relief it is still very controversial but it is an herb that helps calm my pain and gives me much needed clarity. I can’t believe the amounts of pain relief I have experienced. I’m thankful for this short amount of time I have to handle this move without overdoing it until I accidently do too much which is something I have done already. I admit I have been doing a little too much too so hence the “fibro-flare” or “pain flare ups”. Despite the chronic pain and other illnesses I have fought through it all.
I’m making some big decisions that not only affect me but many others. In many ways I believe I have already made my choice but just like The Matrix film trilogy, I’m trying to understand the choices I have made too. All I see is that I will have difficulty but I finally have the ability to find more treatment options for Fibromyalgia symptoms and other illnesses.
I can say that I feel different and free on many levels to try out and learn what best works for my body. I feel as if I’m starting all over again in the new place, new surroundings, and more. I’m happy for all of these options and new options I’ve never even considered.
This year has had non-stop events of so much more than I could ever imagine. I have experienced many disappointments and a few triumphs. This year was very challenging with an added bonus diagnosis of a chronic disease that will also be with me for the rest of my life and an illness that can be fatal.
BFFs for life!
Over the course of the year, I have lost some friends and I know some people say that if they stop talking to you or don’t talk to you as much they aren’t your real friends. But here’s the thing there are people who are placed in your life for a short time and some for a long time. I do feel that things have changed with a lot of people but that happens. I miss them but there isn’t anything I can do about it. We all get busy with life and responsibilities. There are people who I still wish I had a chance to meet before I move but I know that with my chronic health problems that has made it hard to do that. It’s not my fault that I’m chronically ill and all I can do is move on. There will always be positive and encouraging people around to support me. I have reconnected with people I knew in high school and that connection has helped me with forgiving others and rebuilding those friendships.
I understand that I will be moving forward to something large with this move. It’s huge! I have never moved this far, let alone out of the country. It was something that I had hoped that I wouldn’t have to do as I wanted to stay right here where I was born and raised. However, certain events did not work out and my only other choice was to move.
I admit I will miss participating in my few hobbies such as couponing and receiving good free stuff. So that means no more mail! I LOVE receiving mail. I’m working on changing that by getting involved with crafts while I’m living in my new home and swap out postcards and handmade cards with others worldwide. I know that I’ll be able to do crafts while I’m there as my fibromyalgia pain goes down a bit. I think it would help me to get through intense homesickness. I’m trying to fight through the changes my chronic illnesses have forced upon me. They have completely changed the way I react, and act with others. I’m fighting through all of that.
The great things of this year included visiting family and having family visit us too.
I somehow managed to enjoy the little things in life such as finding ways to make myself laugh and keep a positive outlook of my life.
I have lost over 30 pounds in the last few months and while I have some ways to go I’m very happy to see the changes. I can thank going into an old exercise fitness workout called Richard Simmons’ Sweatin’ to the Oldies and walking. I really want to get his new 3 DVD set as he has some exercises for people like me.
Seeing the NASA Space Shuttle Endeavour at the California Science Center. I got very emotional seeing the shuttle as I have watched it take off into space and land many times in my life. Space and exploration have always interested me.
Fight to keep a positive attitude and outlook. I may not have always succeeded but I remain hopeful even when hope seems hopeless. I know it’s not. I keep going through persevering.
Even right now I’m battling with the flu that has refused to leave my body which is nonstop fun with chronic illnesses. Despite all of this, I’m sitting up and trying to continuously move forward each day of my life.