Selection of Songs Listened:
- Coming Home – Gorgon City ft. Maverick Sabre
- Losing – Becky Hill
- Nocturnal – Disclosure ft. The Weeknd
- Stay Ready (What A Life) – Jhene Aiko ft. Kendrick Lamar
- After Dawn – Letherette
- WTH – Jhene Aiko ft. Ab-Soul
I wish people could understand that. But it’s hard for others to understand a life of nonstop aka chronic sickness and that is something I understand. It’s a hard life. It’s limiting. While I push my limits I’m learning more to not do that. I’m thankful that others will always desire for me to do more than I could ever do or handle but in return it would be great to be understood that I’m focused on what’s best for which is my continued work on my health problems.
The full-time hustle and bustle no longer works for me. No place would hire me as I never would know how I’d feel each day. It’s unpredictable. I’m always on the lookout to find things I could possible handle but that list is amiss just like my body. My final employer gave me the best advice that I’ve ever heard which is to concentrate on fixing my health and get the best help possible as I was too young to have my fast-tracked career cut short just like that. So that is what I’m working on here. My job is my health. That’s it for now. Without your health you’re screwed. With all that I have going on I’d like to be here for awhile.I’m trying to build up the funding to try out several medical institutions that can test my body and find out what else is wrong so I can figure how to minimize the problems and improve my wellness.
I’m thankful for all the help I’ve received but besides saying thank you, the showing it in a physical form is difficult for me. I try to find ways that I can help out. I wish I could do more major things but I have faith that I’ll get there one way or another. This help has been abundant in helping me to get slightly settled on my current situation.
I’ve been given an opportunity to give my body the rest it needs. Giving up working was the most difficult and painful thing in my life. Giving up something I loved doing. I hope none of you experience that. It’s the worst thing to experience and I’m always on the lookout for new paths I can create.